Day 43 - March 31
WTS MDIV 2000, DMIN 2006; WTS former adjunct faculty; WTS PM&M Program Partner; Wesley Council Donor; Elder, Baltimore-Washington Annual Conference; Director of Pastor Care and Counseling at Asbury Methodist Village
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Rebound ~ Psalm 70
Am I going to die? That was the question that came to mind when I was told by a staff person from the Maryland Department of Health that I had tested positive for the coronavirus. Am I going to die? That was the question upon which I reflected at night in bed, when I had difficulty falling asleep because I could not catch my breath. My body was slightly convulsing in response.
I identify with the psalmist’s lament who cries out to God for deliverance. I had not been in the hospital since I was twenty-five; yet, shortly after my coronavirus diagnosis I became seriously ill and was admitted. Am I going to die? I was in spiritual turmoil, asking myself why this was happening.
I ride a spiritual rollercoaster during Holy Week. The mockers in the Psalm mirror Jesus’ enemies who plotted to take his life. Jesus endured physical and mental turmoil; and came to a point of resignation in the Garden of Gethsemane. He would rebound after his week of passion. While I was recovering from the coronavirus a curious thing happened – I became content, still not knowing if I would fully recover; yet I was engulfed with a sense of peace. I stopped struggling with the uncertainty and came to a point of resignation. Shortly thereafter, I completely recovered from the coronavirus and I have had no lingering symptoms. The Lord’s presence helped me during that journey, and I was able to rebound.